Originally Posted by Dreamliner
There you go, a welcome victory. I surmise that your 265 might have been like my low 160's, years ago, the heaviest I've ever been. It's hard for me to now imagine eating enough to get back there.
And again, I'm not saying that no one can lose a bunch of weight and keep it off forever. Certainly recidivism is short of 100%. But of course everyone thinks they're the exception to the rule.
Oh, I could imagine eating "well enough" to be 265 again. With out a single problem.
I would hate myself too.
Can I be 265+.. yes. Will I, no. I enjoy what else I can do now more than the long term eating it will take to get there.
Can I be 180? Yes. Can I maintain 180? At this point in my life, I do not fell disciplined enough to do so. Maybe that will change. It's all in my head.
Speaking of "in my head"... Do I have some wires crossed as a result of being 265? ABSOLUTELY. I fully believe that I am screwed up when it comes to food, and not eating 4000 calories a day is a challenge. Some days are better than others.
I do not like equating "food addiction" to other more serious and deadly addictions... but I think food addiction is tangible. Furthermore, I think that once you give in to a temptation, you always maintain that connection, and it takes mental work to resist that temptation.
Thus... failing at a lifestyle change and putting weight back on is a MENTAL failure before anything else.